I mean, I don't usually update my journal so quickly. But...

And I feel bad for even saying this, because it's wrong...

But my birthday wasn't very good at all.

The actually day. I'm hoping the party will be cool.

And Sara did a great job of keeping me from crying myself to sleep. Since she came over it made it feel a lot better while she was there. I love the picture she gave me. Gawd I love House. And the anime she watched with me, Gurren Lagan. I've been wanting to watch that for awhile but I could never remember the name.

I had a ceremony interrupt my birthday, but it was okay, because I got a medal. I didn't even know you got a medal for Language Honor Society. I love medals. The last medal I got was in thrid grade, for jumping about ten feet in the long jump or something. I was only about three feet or less...((I was short...))

But usually the day of my birthday feels a little bit special. I mean last year it was on final show night, we had cake AND cupcakes back stage. The year before that I had a bunch of cosplayers sing me happy birthday and almost won anime fear factor. The years before that for as long as I can remember we at least went out to eat at a resturant.

This year I got sushi from wal-mart and not so much as a birthday cookie.

And my family won't help me clean the house. And I have another award ceremony tomorrow, a Speech to give for running for a Theatre Officer position on Thursday, and more award stuff on Friday. My party's Saturday. If I were still working I think I would have died already.

Thank you for being there while I was so emotional Sara. ((Even though she doesn't pay attention to these...))



...I just feel like no one remembered it was my birthday. Except Sara and Nicole, but their my bestest of friends. No one at my school remembered it was my birthday. Everyone questioned my formal birthday attire. I muttered that it was my birthday so many times I started to doubt it myself. I don't know. I have to thank Sara again, for coming over and trying to cheer me up, but I was already sad before she came. I felt bad for being so emotional. But I guess I'm just one big fuck up or something. I hope the party is better. Oh gawd I hope the party turns out okay...

Sorry, I just had to get that off my chest. I feel better now. I'm sorry, again. I usually don't do this kinda stuff...

Sorry...